Robin Moulton

A Poem

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Please forgive me for going astray
It’s not that I don’t believe in your grace
I just feel out of sync, sort of off-balance
And I’m looking for a reason to be happy
Endeavoring to once again burst at the seams
Appreciating the moments, I’m being gifted
To not take them for granted, but accept them as
They come. Friendships, relationships, family ties.
and they all go. Yet we remain.
Until we don’t.

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Are you ever afraid to live?
Scared to fail, yet fearing success
Finding terrible scenarios for either
Why find a way to crawl down the rabbit hole when we can stay above ground?
Worrying about things that likely don’t exist, and playing devil's advocate until exhausted
We must shine a light on fear so brightly, it can’t hide

I want to embrace her like a part of my family because that’s how it was growing up. Permeating decision-making, haunting dreams, and paralyzing us in all four bodies
Staying with us at every family gathering, and even finding a way with us back home

I no longer want to live under this umbrella, refusing to see the sun.

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When your heart is pumping so fast your hands keep trembling
When you dream and dream
and then all of a sudden it’s reality
Small seeds planted
and nurtured
The fruit tastes sweet
When you’re afraid of yourself
because you finally realized how powerful you are
That you can do exactly what you said you…

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I’ve been thinking about you
The depth in your eyes, the pauses in our conversation
Wondering what we would talk about next
And if our flow would be as easy as last time
You seemed uneasy
So I tiptoed to explore your mind
Taking care not to slip and fall
And get lost in your sea
Maybe one day you’ll invite me in
But for now, I’ll cherish the feelings you bring
Eagerly anticipating the day we’ll know each other
And not just be two strangers in a bar
But two kindred spirits in flight
Unfettered and fearless
Soaring in the sky
I don’t want you, because I could never have you
And I know you don’t need me
Because you’re enough on your own
But if you would share your time
I damn sure wouldn’t waste it

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You don’t have to love me
You do not have to accept who I am
My existence will not falter,
nor will it succumb to what you wish me to be
Many seasons come and go
The pace of change is never constant
But a pendulum, swaying to and fro
Sometimes the change is too slow
At times it’s excessively fast
And ever so rarely does everything line up at the perfect moment
Usually when you least expect
Cherish the thoughts, feelings, and interactions
The facets that shape your being
Feel comfort in your perceived limitations
For we are only mortals
Fall gracefully,
and stand up slowly
Knowing that when you plant your feet
Your steps will be sure
Head in the clouds
Feet on the ground
Seeing nothing when you look into the mirror

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What is this void I’m trying to fill
Lust pulls at me
Affection the beckoning call through the night
Knowing that it’s temporary makes me wonder
Why can’t I seem to let it go?
Why do I continuously reach for empty calories
When I know I need sustenance
Intimacy. Belonging. Nurture.
We all look for these things in relationships
Whether romantic or platonic
Are you cultivating these emotions for those around you?
When you feel a lack, what do you do?
There is no substitution for the feeling of being loved
Though we try to replace it with distractions in our day-to-day
Where do you look
When you’re trying to fill that void

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I have to confront my feelings with death, for I know it can come at anytime
But when the knocking raps on the door, will I be ready to answer?
Or will I have some last-minute chores to do
Some ironing, washing, tidying
Straightening out of minor details
Hoping that whoever sees this place that I left
Knows I did my best
and that when God sees what I’ve done
They will be pleased

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Why are we humans so territorial?
Marking off the land as if it were ours
As if we have any control over the Earth and her tendencies
She was here before we were born, and will remain after we’ve gone
The inhabitants may look different
The atmospheric conditions surely have changed
But she is still here
When will we master the art of cherishing without needing ownership
Appreciating without capturing
We get a glimpse of pure joy and want to bottle it for tomorrow
But when taken out of the natural environment, it withers within a week
I hope to let go of my need to control that which I cannot
and hope to appreciate that which I can

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